After the Shaking

Today is March 2, 2026 and I have to leave soon to drop my passport for my Chinese Visa. The lights are active above me in Tamra’s room as I start to write this – perhaps reminding me to speak life and hope in this message.

I start with gratitude. I’m grateful my son is doing good with daily door dash and his car is working and God gave me the money to get his warrants and ID reinstated. I’m grateful his dad lived through the car accident he just had and I’m grateful my daughter is healthy and meeting new people in music in Florida. What a beautiful gift God gave her in that voice she has. Also in the solitude she’s learned to play guitar. I’m so proud of her – I doubt she knows that but one day I’ll get to say it as she believes in her path too.

We’ve all grown in the shaking and separation. God has lifted weights off of me and forced my kids to become more self-reliant and he’s forced me to trust HIM that their path is ordained by him. I’m also grateful I’m surviving as this ride has been very trying and only by the Grace of God has my health held up.

Today I will also go to Palos Verdes to look at a new place. I hope I feel inspired in that meeting and see the reason for the connection that God has made. All things are working for my good.

In the shaking it’s so hard to hold on. I keep asking myself and asking God in prayer when this will be over – when a new chapter will arrive and the losses and letting go period will be replaced with a season of Spring where new life springs forth in the areas that had been pruned. I keep asking God to give me a new job/career, to show me to my purpose, my person and the place that I’m meant to live.

I think in the valley (I literally am living in the valley oddly enough), the only way to get by is to count the little blessings and to keep a journal of happenings. When I see things repeat I can start to understand “this isn’t God’s will for me”. And yet I’ve continually been banging on the same shut doors. I don’t want to do that anymore. I don’t want to keep running against the wind. Speaking of wind, that’s been a prophetic occurence the last week. I keep hearing in the spirit “Wind of God” as I see crazy wind patterns in flight, peculiar sounds in the wind while walking on the land and last night out of nowhere a rushing wind entered my room.

God’s spirit is called a rushing wind in parts of the Bible. I believe it was even spoke of when the Holy Spirit came upon the disciples and they were given tongues of fire. So I am curious and excited and a little nervous about what it all means but I believe it means its time.

I’ve sat in the stillness STUCK for years asking God’s hand to move. It’s been still. I’ve reminded myself repeatedly to “be still and wait on God.” I’ve reminded myself that God can change everything in one moment of time. I’ve reminded myself repeatedly that GOD IS THE AUTHOR and that this movie I’m living in is God’s design and he’s not done yet.

Today I saw Kathy’s post that said, “Hit play”. And I am doing that. I’m leaving my house today with expectation that all things are working for my good and that THIS IS THE SEASON of major moves by the hand of God. I will no longer be a child stuck in the wilderness sewing in tears. Now the wind of God moves in my favor and now God shows me why all of this shaking was necessary.

My prayer today…

Dear Heavenly Father,

Go before me today and cause divine meetings and moves to happen by your WINDOWS of HEAVEN where you send the WIND OF GOD into my path and show me the way you wish for me to go. Lord I give you all the Glory for the shaking that has been hard and I don’t understand it but I know you’ll show me why it was all necessary as you will get all the Glory for the goodness of the replacements that you send into my life now that is far more than I could’ve even imagined. Lord you are my author and finisher of my faith and my story and your plans for me are to prosper me and give me a life more abundantly. So I lay down the pen and don’t try to save my old life. I surrender to you God and Father I ask you to show me why I’m here, why California, why my old ways, old job, old family and old way of being had to go. Pour out blessings from Heaven upon me today in Jesus’ name…..

Amen…

Note: Brad just called and gave me a rundown of 57 people that came through his open house yesterday on the Dennis Adelpour team. If this is a team for me let me know God. Also we are going to get together later this week. If that’s your will cause it to happen without my doing Lord. Go with me to David’s to see the ADU unit and to the Chinese Visa place and to the West Hollywood apartments. Also God if the linkedin jobs applied to yesterday have a role with my name on it please cause me to get a response and interview. I give it all to you God. Do what only you can do as I’ve tried to do it my way and I’m ready to release all I am to you and be lifted up by your hands (the winds of God) and carried into where YOU have predestined me to be. Here my heart today Jesus. I am thirsty for your love, your guidance and your good will.

Ok… talk later secret journal in the sky…