I feel like I came here to California and have been on this crazy journey that began in 2016 when my life was turned upside down just to learn a lesson about free will. No matter what we do, how much we sacrifice or how deeply we love another, they may never love us back. […]
I’ve been sad for so long now. I wear a smile and disguise my voice like I’m a cartoon character sent to spread joy into the world. I pass out prayer candles and inside I feel like a fraud as I repeat the same stories. I tell others about the miracles I witnessed in an […]
I feel it all ending. I’m not sure what it is but it’s not in my control. Perhaps the very root of suffering is found in trying to be in control. Maybe I shouldn’t want to know what happens next because trying to collect clues and crack the code causes expectation and disappointment.
My daughter is reading it and she sent me a ton of messages last night about coming back together with her dad. She discussed his miracle in healing and that the devil is a liar to say he’s stuck like this. I am torn in this all because I know that man broke my heart. […]
I flew to Hawaii and felt peace when I walked the ocean. I felt I belonged there. I wish I could live on the beach and be in nature. I wish I could learn to surf and bodyboard. I don’t want to go back to Houston. God did so much to get me out of […]
I woke up this morning and started to pray. Immediately I was shown a candle. I lit one and I prayed and then I worked out with Tamra and I gave her a fully body massage. Serving others can be hard when the ones we love the most and wish to serve are so far […]
I just returned from Florida in visiting my daughter for a few days. I had a call with Jason from Texas there on Wednesday and he once again brought up the idea of me moving back to Houston. I don’t want to say yes or no. I don’t want to control anything. But God knows […]
This morning I woke up with a disturbing revelation. All of these people I’ve met from the script writer to the trucking company woman have all led to nowhere. I found out after much dialogue that they were much like me – carrying aspirations to do something in the film industry but they had never […]
I don’t know what we’re meant to do together but something is going on. And it seems as I’m typing this there is in an unspoken “will” that’s going on and directing my path beyond what words say. I feel like he’s blocking my path to Texas and perhaps I am too but it’s not […]
My offer didn’t come over this morning as expected. Instead I received a call from the owner asking me to put together a plan to work on the company’s social media and marketing from a distance. I feel like I’m a piece of laundry in the dryer spin cycle. The moment I get my mind […]